My 4 Loves

May the Force be with you. Charlie turns 7.

2012-01-26T18:54:00.000-08:00


The birthday boy on his birthday with his best buddy.

We did A LOT of celebrating this year for Charlie's birthday. We had 3 separate events and they were ALL so much fun! Daddy was unfortunately out of town on Charlie's birthday but Nana came over for dinner, hot dogs per the boys request and cake from Casa Dolce...yum!

Then the following Saturday we went all out. First we had a handful of school friends over for a mega STAR WARS party. All boys and one very sweet little girl :)

I made her these cute little Leiah buns (thanks Christina for the idea!!)

Trent made the coolest jet packs out of 2 liter bottles and light sabers out of foam and colored duct tape. They were a HUGE hit!

We started the party by building spaceships out of LEGOS which the kids were more then happy to do and probably would of kept at it for longer if I didn't have an agenda and time constraints.

Then we headed them downstairs to an obstacle course, ie Jedi Training. They had to jump through hot lava,

and then climb over an galactic asteroid (2 chairs covered in a grey table cloth), and then crawl through the slimy green swap (crawl through a tunnel that was covered with a green table cloth). The kids loved it! Then they headed back upstairs to design their Jedi wrist bands. I used an old roll of wrapping paper and cut it into bracelets. I spray painted some old wooden blocks gold and cut out the lets JEDI in foam and made my own stamps. The kids stamped with ink, JEDI on their wrist bands and then decorated them with stars.

Now they were true Jedi's and had to return to the basement and battle the Stormtroopers that had invaded our home.

I drew Stormtrooper faces on white helium balloons and Trent taped them to the basement floor. The kids went NUTS!!!


Even Daddy had a good time!

Then it was time for cake, presents and for all little Jedi's to go home.

We were awaken bright and early by Tommy who was dressed in his Sunday school clothes, v-neck sweater on backwards and all, which he insisted on wearing backwards the entire day. When asked why he was so dressed up he simply said with his shy little grin, "I wanted to look good for the party". Adorable, Thomas, you are adorable!!

Then came round 3! That same afternoon, call us crazy, we had our family and family-like friends over for our traditional birthday party.

Darth Vader even showed up! Tommy took one look at her and said "Nana!"....it was so funny!

We had a Darth Vader pinata

The kids made paper R2D2s and Galaxy Playdough (black homemade playdough and they added glitter to it)

And then we had to have cake AGAIN!

Light Saber cupcakes


C3PO Hydro-Oil

Trent made a lot of really cool graphics for the party. He made the water bottle covers, the signage for the center piece, Edible Ewoks that were used with gummie bears as a favor and a light saber sign for light saber favors that were pretzels dipped in red and blue chocolate. He also made the invitation and the sign for our Yoda Soda, green sherbert and 7up.

I totally cheated on the cake this year. With everything else that we did to prepare, I just wasn't into making a big cake. So the night before the party I called the local market and went and bought an undecorated cake straight from their freezer. They sold me a bucket of frosting and I was off. Unfortunately, they didn't give me enough frosting to cover anything but the top. Thankfully, I had left over grey frosting from the cupcakes and a can of chocolate ready made frosting in the pantry. Tada!!! Charlie picked Anakin's Skywalkers flying machine to put on top, I threw miniature R2D2s and his friends around the cake and called it a day.

I think that Trent and I had a lot of fun putting all of this together for Charlie. But the most important thing was that Charlie had a great birthday surrounded by old and new friends and people that love him.

I can not believe that our boy, our baby, is 7 years old!!

Dearest Charlie,

We love you beyond the moon and back. You are the sweetest, funniest, most loving boy and we are blessed to have been chosen to be your family.

Happy Birthday Charlie Barley Bear!

Christmas Program at Tommy's school

2012-01-19T10:26:00.000-08:00

Reading the Night Before Christmas

Anxiously waiting for Santa, ie hand in mouth because he is SO excited

When asked what they wanted for Christmas all the kids said a "surprise", I think they were nervous and just followed what the first kid said. Tommy wasn't going to be a "follower" oh, no, he was going to make sure that Santa KNEW what he wanted the most....A Bobba Fett Costume :)

Penny wanted nothing to do with this Santa :)

For Grandpa

2012-01-18T10:25:00.000-08:00

Dear Grandpa,

If you think that you can keep me out of the "mix" of all you fellas for long, you are sadly mistaken. I would like my own set of ear protection, in preferably pink or purple. I suppose that black would do as well too.

And I am still waiting on that John Deere hat :)

Love,
Penny

Just some sentences..........

2012-01-15T05:33:00.000-08:00

It is Sunday morning, we are not going to church today, instead we opted to catch up on some much needed sleep and stay in our pj's, cozy and warm in our little home. Sometime we need days like this. Days to just be together, have nothing on the "schedule". To do projects around the house, or not. To play video games to our hearts desire, to read all the books in the baby basket without interruption, to lay cuddled on the couch together.

Outside is a winter wonderland. The tree limbs are lined with fluffy snow and our foot prints from yesterdays "snow caterpillar" building are covered again with a blanket of the white stuff. It is 8:21 and the sun is peaking from behind the school, making the trees sparkle.

Trent is asleep, I hear Penny stirring in her crib, talking to Pink Kitty most likely and my boys are wearing their homemade jet pack (that Daddy made!) and playing the part of fearless Jedi's.

The house is less then put together. The dining room table is cluttered with cereal boxes for Chalrie's class Valentines Day craft, a cupcake holder I bought to take in his birthday cupcakes to school, a water bottle, some jackets and my house binder. Reminents of a puppet show are on the coffee table, from when Nana and the cousins were over last night. There is probably 5 loads of laundry that needs to be washed and about 2 that need to be put away. I still need to send out a box of Christmas gifts to our friends in Michigan and package up all of our online homeschooling supplies and computer to send back. The beds need to be changed and the toy boxes in the dining room need to be gone through again.

Life is good and I am content.

Christmas Morn

2012-01-07T09:51:00.000-08:00

This year we were at home for Christmas Eve and Christmas morning. Trent cooked a big meal on Christmas Eve and we went to service at church with Nana. It was fun to wrap presents in the late hours with Trent as we were both giddy with anticipation of Santa's arrival. We focus a lot on the true meaning of Christmas and we throughly celebrate the birth of our Saviour. But we also enjoy the excitement and whimsey of Santa and the loot he brings. We don't do a ton of presents in our home. The kids typically get one gift from Santa, one gift from their siblings and one or two gifts from us. We also do small stocking stuffers. Sometimes Trent and I exchange gifts and sometimes, like this year we both expressed larger items that we would like to have before Christmas (he wanted a flat screen tv and I wanted a family photo shoot), works for us!

The kids had so much fun looking at all the presents and figuring out which was there "Santa" present. He usually brings the BEST. This year we had a dilemma. Grandma and Grandpa Lydic asked what the boys wanted so I told them a few things that were on the "lists", however Tommy really only wanted one thing, a Bobba Fett costume. They said they would get it for him and I figured we could find some other things that he would enjoy, win, win. Well, on Christmas Eve there was discussion about how ONLY Santa could bring the costume because that is what Tommy had asked for when we visited Santa. NO ONE else could bring, it HAD to come from Santa. An emergency call was sent to Grandpa Lydic who chuckled and gave the ok for a present switch, and diverted a MAJOR catastrophe :)

We spent all morning in our pajamas and had a huge breakfast. It was so fun to watch the kids enjoying their presents and playing nicely together. Even Penny got into opening presents, it was precious and I felt overwhelmed with gratitude for our family and all the blessings we have been given. My heart overflowed with love as I watched my dear sweet husband playing with our children, making us a lovely brunch and snuggled up on the couch with me drinking coffee and watching all the fun. I am truly blessed on so many levels and thank our Heavenly Father.

And after all our fun at home we headed over to spend the afternoon with my sister and her family and my parents. We had a nice dinner and exchanged gifts with them and the cousins ran around like crazy maniacs and everyone dotted over Penny who decided to charm us all and take her first steps from Nana to Grandpa! Man does she know the way to my Dad's heart :)

It was a truly wonderful Christmas and I think we all needed to make some new traditions and be together as a family.

Our Family, My Blessings

2012-01-07T07:03:00.000-08:00

Photos by the adorable and talented Wendy of Blue Lily

Homemade Christmas 2012

2011-12-26T07:20:00.000-08:00

This year I decided to make it a homemade Christmas. For years I have been wanting to really do this, dig in, find lots of ideas, and then actually do it. I felt that we accomplished a lot of what I had planned to do and it was so fun crafting with the kids, making projects with Trent and staying up late working like one of Santa's elves! I hope that everyone that received one of our homemade with love gifts, enjoys them as much as we enjoyed making them!

I found this printable on the internet and had it printed as a picture. Then I put it in a frame and gave to family and friends.

The boys drew pictures and Penny scribbled on some paper or I traced her hand and then modge podge the pictures onto small white tiles to make coasters. We then added felt to the bottom and gave them many clear coats of paint. Wrapped with festive Christmas fabric bows and sent them on their way.

I modge podged a picture frame with wrapping paper and added a bow.

Hand painted R2D2 ornament for Charlie

Hand painted Boba Fett ornament for Tommy

The Symbols of Christmas tin

Altoid tins decorated with felt and filled with homemade magnets

Magnets made from clear stones, pictures from magazines glued to stones and then magnet glued on the back.

Hand painted train ornament for a friend

Notepad made from clear picture frame, sheet music printed from the internet that was put inside the frame and a post it glued to the front. I ran out of time and next time would add more embellishment.


Homemade candy cane playdough in spaghetti sauce jars that we have been saving, wrapped in festive fabric and a cookie cutter tied to the top.

It is beginning to look a lot like Christmas....

2011-12-26T06:43:00.000-08:00

Penny's hand print snowman ornament

Baking

Christmas of yesteryear

The ONLY reason we celebrate. The birth of our Lord and Savior!

Command station, aka dining room table...just keeping it real people!

Santa nesting dolls Nana gave us...LUV!


Christmas cards

Santa WAS here!

Gingerhead cookies for Charlie's Christmas class party

Homemade box of magnets for teachers and friends

R2D2 ornament I painted for Charlie

It ~~is beginning to~~ looked a lot like Christmas.

Funny things they say

2011-12-11T18:55:00.000-08:00

While watching the Disney movie Pocahontas, John Smith refers to Pocahontas and her people as "savages". Charlie says "savages, like the kind you can eat from the garden" (cabbage)

Sammie our cat was sleeping with Tommy one night. Tom came downstairs complaining, but not crying that Sam had bitten him. I asked if he was being nice to Sam and he said "yeaaaaah"...um NO! Then he said "Sammy bite me. He thinks I am yummy for breakfast".

Every Sunday after church Daddy makes us pancakes, eggs and bacon. One Sunday we were just sitting down and Charlie was munching away on some bacon. "I never knew that a dirty pig could taste so good". Had us both rolling!!

While watching Rudolph the Red Nosed Reindeer and the Island of the Misfit Toys, better known in our house as the "Toy Stealer" movie, Charlie pipes up "Momma, girl elves don't make the toys at Santa's workshop. They just tell the boy elves what to make". Smart boy :)

A Servant's Heart

2011-12-03T16:23:00.000-08:00

For the last 2 or 3 years we have filled boxes for Samaritans Purse, Operation Christmas Child. And with each year that we participate we are blessed even more.

Over the year I had saved odds and ends of little toys, party favors, extra crayons, etc. It really helped to fill the boxes to the brim this year! Each year we also go to the dollar store and the boys pick out several items for "their" buddies box. This year the boys had been saving some of their chore money for this exact purpose. I think they each had $4 dollars to spend and they were very careful on their choices. Tommy knew right away that his "buddy" would love a truck and a Spider Man tooth brush. Charlie choose a purple squigey porcupine ball and a tooth brush pack that had 2 tooth brushes in it. He reasoned that his "buddy" would probably like the Spiderman tooth brush better, but this way he would have a toothbrush to share or just an extra one. I was amazed at how thoughtful Charlie was this year. He really got it!

This year we also included a letter to our "buddy" and our address. We were told that often the children will write back to the family that donated the box. We also registered our boxes online so we will know what part of the world our boxes went to.

I love doing activities like this with our children. To teach them that it is always better to give then receive. To show them how privileged we are as a family and a nation and that most of the world does not live like we do. That we need to be mindful of those around us, help when we can, even if that means to say a prayer for someone.

These are the moments that I hope are etched into our children's hearts. These are the memories that I pray they will one day cherish for I know that I truly do!

Answered Prayer

2011-12-02T18:08:00.000-08:00

I am not sure how to even begin writing this post. I am flooded by so many emotions and feelings from the happenings of the last few days. All of which have come to fruition this evening, leaving me grateful, overwhelmed, sad, humbled, in awe, feeling powerless, raw, and full of love.

Last month I said a prayer, a simple prayer really, asking God to show me a family or individual that we as a family could help. Then I went on my way and didn't give it much more thought. With Christmas approaching we have done are normal charity/service projects and being the chair of community service at Charlie's school, I began to put a list together of other ways we could serve those around us.

Then I got a phone call from my mom one day. I heard the despair in her voice and the tears in her eyes. She spoke of a family that was renting from her. A single mom with 4 children. Over the years we have heard hundreds of very sad stories of her tenants, each with their unique set of circumstances. But this family was different for her and for me.

I thought, what can I do? There wasn't a lot in our budget to put towards this family, but I knew that if I was going to try and help them that I could not do it alone. So, I posted on face book a simple list of some of their immediate needs and asked if people could help we would really appreciate it. I also emailed 2 friends that are not on facebook.

Within a few hours I had a friend donate one of the twin mattresses. The next day another friend bought a brand new mattress and gave a gift card to a grocery store for $200. Another friend, who is unemployed as is her husband and they have 3 little children, dropped off brand new dishes, silverware, a gift for each of the 4 children and mother, blankets etc. The day after that another friend said her church had given her $200 to go grocery shopping for the family. The gifts just came pouring in, filling our basement. My mom bought a table and chair set for the family, toys for the kids, a few kitchen items. I went to the Salvation Army and bought the best 2 sets of twin sheets I could find and a Calphalon pot for $3!!!!! I also drove by the dollar store and picked up some everyday items like toothbrushes, toothpaste, Christmas candy, spatula, strainer etc. I dug through our blankets and found 2 nice bedspreads that we never use and 2 new pillows that just sit in our linen closet. The boys each picked out a book to add to our growing donation pile and we talked a lot about why all this "stuff" was in our house.

Out of the donations and the odds and ends from our home I put together a stocking for each of the family members and a gift bag full of goodies. I wrapped some of the gifts so that the little ones would have the fun of ripping paper to see what surprise was inside. I had so much fun putting everything together, trying to make it special for them.

I felt God's presence with each phone call and with each donation. This is what I had prayed for and it was right before my feet. Even if the mom sold the mattresses for crack (as someone suggested, and believe me, I had thought it as well), that didn't matter. What mattered was that people, Christians and non, were coming together to help a family that was truly in NEED. That despite our own financial struggles we were digging deep to help a family that had/has FAR less then any of us do. And if in our acts of service, just one of those children or the mother alike, could feel the love of Jesus' then it was all worth it!

My mom had told me that they literally had nothing, but I was no where prepared for what I saw. All of their possession could fit in my kitchen. They had 2 full beds (for 5 people), a leather couch that was literally falling apart, an old hutch that was beaten and worn and housed the smallest tv I have ever seen, and a small round kitchen table but no chairs. They were eating out of 2 bowls, if you want to call them that....they were empty tubs of butter and they had two or three pieces of silverware. There was not a picture to be seen, no children's art work hung on the fridge, no rugs on the floor, not a toy or book to be seen. It was as if no one lived there. Certainly not 4 children.

Forever etched in my heart are the eyes and smiles of those children. So sweet and innocent, so grateful, so BEYOND grateful. A truck that my boys haven't played within in months became their treasure. The 4 year old carried around a stuffed elephant that I had given her in one arm and her new Dora bowl in the other. The little boys clung to the Transformer my mom bought him as he helped carry in the items from the car. The mother couldn't stop crying or asking what she had done to deserve this blessing. The gratitude was on their faces, in their eyes and felt through their many hugs.

To God be the glory! Once again He orchestrated a mighty plan and put into motion a gathering of people to help a family in desperate need of help. I am humbled and grateful.

Bat Boy

2011-12-02T16:18:00.000-08:00

This boy has some serious imagination. And some serious love for anything dress up. He recently saw a Batman costume in a catalog and decided to make his own. I helped draw the bat and mask, and he did all the coloring, cutting and acting.

Look out world! Here comes Bat Boy

Opening presents

2011-12-01T16:18:00.000-08:00

Such a girlie girl, she was so proud of herself

She wanted her fuzzy socks on right away.

OnE

2011-12-01T16:14:00.000-08:00

One

*Our girl turned 1 on Nov 1.
*I can barely believe it. I think I am in denial actually.
*Penny is at such a cute and fun stage right now.
*I am just loving every minute with her!
*Her first word is "Hi" and says it whenever she sees someone including the cat and dog. And she not only says it with the sweetest little voice, but does so while giving you the biggest grin and waving her pudgy little fingers.
* I am a little late on writing this, I just couldn't bring myself to do it :) But on November 15th, she actually crawled on all fours. She has been doing the "army crawl" for the longest time. She has gotten up on her knees and rocked back and forth but wouldn't take that first "crawl" until now. And by the time I actually got around to posting this, she is crawling now more then doing the "army crawl". But her favorite of mode of transportation is walking everywhere. She has not taken any independent steps but loves for you to hold her hands and cruise the house.
*On 11/15 decided it was time to make the long crawl up the stairs! Last week she made it up the first step but was hesitant to go any further. I think Tommy coaching her from the top of the stairs and me holding onto her from the back of her shirt, gave her the incentive to make journey. She was so proud of herself and so were Tommy and I! We have entered a whole new era of baby proofing around here!
*At 11 months I weaned her from nursing and in a rather short period of time but she did great! I think it helped greatly that only Daddy fed her for about 2 weeks or so. But now I am back to giving her bottles and enjoying our snuggles. I truly miss nursing her, but I know that we had such a good run. Nursing Penny was never complicated or difficult. It came so naturally and I never worried about whether she was eating enough or not. I fed her on demand for 11 months and truly enjoyed that time I spent with her. It was a wonderful experience and I feel so blessed to have been able to do that for her as nursing has never been that effortless for me before!
*Penny loves to read books and her favorite lovie is a small teddy bear that we call Ted.
*She is still infatuated with her brothers and loves to play with them. Now that she is bigger they hold her under her arms and try to walk her around (with supervision!) and she loves to wrestle with them.
* The funniest thing about Penny is how "girlie" she already is. The boys could care less about what they wear, but Penny gets all excited when I show her what she is wearing for the day. She LOVES headbands and bows. My Aunt sent her a pink shirt for her birthday and immediately after opening it, Penny put it on her head (she was trying to put it on) and had a huge smile, like "look at me and my pretty shirt". She also loves shoes...I have a feeling we are really going to be in for it!
*She is eating really well and is far less picky then she was. She still takes a bottle before both naps (I think in the next month or so she will be down to one nap, by 13 months she is pretty much down to one nap), before bed and usually wakes up again 2 times before morning, 7:30am. She is also sleeping better with stretches of 5-6 hours. Trent and I now share night duty so that I can catch up on a little sleep. He is such a wonderful Daddy and has taken such good care of her and all the kiddos!

As of 13 months she is babbling a lot and actually trying to put words together. She says Dada, Mom, Ni Ni (night, night), Nissss (nice), she grunts and tries to bark like a dog. She blows kisses, waves high, gives big hugs to Mama and loves to give nosies and butterfly kisses.

Dear Sweet Penny,
I can't believe it has been a year since we were blessed to see your sweet face for the first time. I knew immediately that you and I would be the bestest of friends and that God had graced us with your presence. You are truly a gift and I thank God every.single.day for your precious life. Daddy and I love you so very much. We have vowed to stand beside you and support you, to always be there for you! There is nothing more important to us then you and your sweet brothers. You bring such a tenderness to our home and can settle even your wild boys with your adorable smile and laugh. You are our answered prayer and we love you dearly.

Forever and Always!
Love,
Daddy and Mommy

Halloween 2011

2011-11-15T16:44:00.000-08:00

We had a weekend of Halloween fun! On Friday, Charlie had his school parade and Halloween party. We were all able to be there and watch our little Luke Sky Walker act the part. As soon as he saw us he started doing all of his Jedi moves. It was so funny!

Even Darth and Cupcake dressed up for the parade. Heck, we don't miss an opportunity to celebrate Halloween!

Tommy's school had their parade and party on Halloween morning.

We were both a little bummed because they said no masks, so Darth couldn't be in full costume. Clearly they didn't adhere to that rule. Next time I will make sure to bring the mask! But Tommy was SUPER psyched to have a buddy dressed up as Boba Fett.

My sweet boy even ran up and gave me a big hug. He was so proud of himself and excited!

And then there was Halloween night. The time we had been planning, preparing and counting down to for months!! Costumes had been decided on and then minds were changed , last minute adjustments made. In the end our Star Wars fellas were a hit. Luke Sky Walker, Darth Vader and the Emperor. We all agreed that next year we are all going as a theme. Wouldn't Penny be the cutest little Leia?

We had so much fun! Tommy was unusually terrified of the "chain saw guy". He literally has been talking about this guy since last Halloween and even asked for a chainsaw for Christmas...and got one :) I think that last year the "chainsaw guy" was a little more aware of the little guys and eased off his scariness....NOT this year though. Charlie was really brave though and faced off with the "chainsaw guy". Tommy was pretty impressed by that! Despite the terror of it all, Tom says he wants to go back next year.

It was a great Halloween!

Down on the Farm

2011-11-06T11:26:00.000-08:00

Tommy our little farmer

The theme at Tommy's school has been down on the farm.

Nana and Tommy

He and Nana went on a field trip with his classmates to one of our favorite places, Lakefarm Park. They got to see all kinds of animals and even took a ride on a tractor pulled wagon!

Tom grooming the miniature horse

Tom in the greenhouse at the farm

Tommy milking a cow

At school the kids made a shape tractor

Shape Tractor

and

a scarecrow. I love the eyes on the scarecrow that Tommy drew. He said it was me, because it was happy....so cute. I also thought he did a great job on cutting out all the shapes for his tractor. He was really proud of them both.

At home we also did some farm themed activities to tie into what they are doing at school. I printed out a fun farm unit and Tommy enjoyed helping the animals get back to the barn. We played a dice and graph game together and Tom matched animals and the products that they make.

Tractor puzzle and matching game

Prewriting practice, graph game and counting numbers

The highlight was making our own scarecrow. Tommy was really into to it and Charlie was really into wrestling with the poor guy. Penny had fun picking at the scarecrows eyes and nose. It was a lot of fun!

Magic Whooloween 2011

2011-11-04T07:14:00.000-07:00

It wouldn't be Halloween without a trip to the Magic Whooloween Event at Penitentiary Glenn Park. Penitentiary Glenn is part of our amazing Metroparks and it offers so many different activities through the year. Magic Whooloween just happens to be a family favorite and we wouldn't miss! This year Daddy and I packed up the boys while Penny stayed home with Nana in her nice warm cribbey.

This year the craft was making spooky trees out of toilet paper rolls, tissue paper and stamps. Simple and fun!

Waiting for our train ride

The BEST part of the night is the TRAIN ride through the not so spooky forest that is decorated with Jack-O-Lanterns. It is sooooo fun, even for us grown ups!!

Tommy holding our train sign, we are next in line!!

Tommy was old enough to ride by himself...He was SO excited. I was sitting in front of him and heard his little voice "Hey Dada, you doin ok back there?".....SO CUTE!!! He did great!

Charlie and I had fun getting spooked by all the pumpkins and hanging ghosts.

After our train ride it was time to grab some hot chocolate and donuts and sit by the campfire for a bit.

After we ate and drank our fill we decided to call it a night. Within minutes we had little people sleeping in the back of the van. Something that NEVER happens, so you know they had fun and were worn out.

We can't wait to take Penny with us next year! I know the boys will enjoy showing her all the fun stuff.

Just one of those days

2011-11-02T16:09:00.000-07:00

We all have head colds. Trent and Charlie seem to be on the mend, but Tommy, Penny and myself are dragging. Not exactly what we need right now.

Maybe it was the let down that Penny's party and Halloween are over, the fun is done. Or maybe it is just because I am not feeling good. But today was just one of those days.

I got Penny ready for bed tonight and thought out loud "Mama, what in the world did you get done today?" (I hope I am not the only mom that talks to herself, perhaps my problems are bigger then we think...just kidding!) I thought of ALL the things I wanted to get done:

*wash the floors because someone walked through the house with dog poop on their shoe
*clean out from under the kitchen sink because the pipe broke and nasty coffee grind water sprayed everywhere
*take down Halloween decorations inside the house
*go to playdate (I canceled because we are sick)
*do 2 loads of laundry
*cook dinner
*start Thanksgiving book with Tom
*go to grocery store
*make a meal plan

None of that got done, what did get done:
*didn't make dinner but served leftovers, for some reason they LOVED it tonight when last night they couldn't stand it...go figure!
*got all dirty clothes picked up from everyone's rooms and got it ready to go to the basement
*cleaned the mud from the boys' church shoes that they wore at yesterdays family photo shoot
*scrubbed the kitchen floor on my hands and knees, I could not take things sticking to my feet for ONE.MORE.SECOND
*dropped Trent off at work and had all three kids in the grocery store by 8am to pick up milk and spaghetti sauce for dinner....forgot the spaghetti sauce
*played with Penny for a long time on the floor
*did homework with Charlie
*snuggled with Tommy on the couch and let him graze all morning/afternoon instead of eating "lunch" since he wasn't feeling well
*took an hour nap
*suctioned Penny's poor little nose about 10,000 times, probably more like 8 times, but her screaming and carrying on and all the junk I keep getting out of her makes it feel like 10,000 times!
*made Charlie's lunch for tomorrow

Ok, so my day was certainly not a total wash. In fact if anything at all I already did three out of the five most important things I should do everyday. I spent quality time with each my kids. The night isn't over so I am going to go do my God time and then once the boys are in bed, I am going to snuggle with Honey Trent and probably watch some of his really bad tv. But that is ok because I love him.

It is all good, it was just one of those days!

Penny's First Birthday Party

2011-11-01T07:38:00.000-07:00

Our little cupcake

We had a lot of fun at Penny's first birthday party! We combined it with our annual Halloween party and it was a smashing hit.

We really tried to keep is simple this year, or at least tamed down then what I had originally planned. I took my time and decorated the house over the month leading up to the big day. I had fun making a Trick or Treat banner and making the back porch extra spooky with Trent.

I knew I needed to plan a few activities for the older kids to keep them ~~out of trouble~~ occupied.

Daddy made his famous graveyard that they had to walk through,

Tommy wanted to play skeleton limbo and they decorated Halloween picture frames.
After all that fun was had we paraded over to the playground down the street and did an eye ball hunt. The kids went crazy filling their bags with chocolate eye balls. It was a lot of fun!

The kids also had fun just playing in the backyard and I think that Penny got passed around more then I actually got to hold her! But I was happy to share her with everyone that loves her, especially on her big day!

Then it was time to sing to our birthday girl! I decided to not make a cake (gasp! I know) but instead made
mini ghost cupcakes for the kids and large candy corn cupcakes for the adults.

We also served

friendly ghost chocolate pretzels,

and Halloween sprinkled marshmallow pops. Even though I made several different things, it was really much easier and only took about an hour to make it all. A cut themed cake usually takes me 8 hours from start to finish.

And for the favor we wrapped up friendly witches hats cookies.

I did make a small smash cake just for Penny, a little pumpkin. It was so funny to watch her daintily pick at it and gently lick her fingers. The boys were literally covered in their cakes, but not our sweet little girl. She certainly brings the tender side of things to our house!

The day went by so fast. I was good to see our family and friends come and celebrate our sweet girl with us! The day was really perfect, except for the fact that we were all starting to come down with a cold. Penny was in good spirits and even surprised us at how willing she was to go to everyone (she sometimes gets overwhelmed with crowds), but she was off just a bit. I think she had fun though and really enjoyed seeing all the kids.

Happy Birthday Penny!! We love you so very much!!

Perfect Bliss

2011-10-31T09:26:00.000-07:00

This morning I woke up to a small boy standing next to our bed. He was bending down as close as he could to my face, binki in mouth, he tried to whisper (the boy did NOT come with a volume control button!!), but try he did. "Mama, is it twime to go to Wicoles (Nicole's). I wanna put on my costume. Can I wear the mask AND the cape?" It was 5:30am.

By 6:30am both boys were up and I strategically placed them on opposite ends of the couch with cups full of milk and a fruit bar. I figured it would buy us another thirty minutes of sleep, as long as little sister kept on snoozing.

8:15am came with the hustle and bustle of book bags, coats and school shoes. One last check to make sure the costume was in the bag where I said it would be and that the treats were ready to go. Three carseats buckled, Daddy at the wheel, coffee in hand and we were off.

The air was cold, frost on the car windshield. The sun was peeking out from behind a handful of clouds and the trees sparkled in jewel tones. It was beautiful and I wished out loud that everyday could be like this.

Trent and Tommy spent most of the day on search of a last minute STAR WARS costume for Daddy. After a few attempts they came home empty handed. But with a little imagination and a few yards of fabric we had a cape that would make any Emperor proud!

After a quick trip to Wicoles :) for Tommy to show off is Darth Vader costume, we were off to the Halloween parade at Charlie's school. I don't know who was more excited, me or the kids! Penny was a good sport and let us squeeze her into the cupcake costume that I had picked out for her a few weeks back. Seems our little cupcake has had a growth spurt since :)

How fun it was to watch all the little kids come parading out of the school and around the park. Charlie looked so proud when he saw us. He immediately started posing and acting like the real Luke Sky Walker. Light sabers weren't allowed at school, but that didn't keep Charlie from acting as if. He was adorable! We were so happy for him.

After our Halloween fun for the day it was time for party planning. While Penny napped I set to work making tasty treats for Penny's birthday party and putting on the last minute touches for our not so scary Halloween party. When she awoke from her slumber she joined me in the kitchen while we finished up. Daddy helped put the eyes on our ghosts and whipped up that last batch of cupcakes. There is something about being in the kitchen with my family, especially with Trent. I love it.

After a long day I started to feel my energy drop so I headed upstairs for a quick rest. I laid there snuggled in between our flannel sheets, my head resting on Trent's pillow. Downstairs I could hear Trent preparing dinner for the boys. Tommy fussed that he had mustard on his hand, Trent got a wipe to clean him up and spoke sweetly to Penny from across the room. Charlie's laughter filled the house, some show had him going. My heart was full.

I gave Penny her bottle and snuggled her close. Her hair is so soft and fuzzy against my check. She reached up and patted my face then grasped my hand with her fingers. When she was done she buried her face in my neck and gave me a hug, something new for her. She then proceeded to "zerbert" my neck and blow raspberries. A new trick and we both laughed. She is the sweetest girl.

The boys needed second and third warnings. Tommy held my hand and tried to keep sleep from his eyes. I rubbed noses with him and he smiled underneath the bink. I know he is too old, but I don't care. He has one left and then these sweet last bits of baby will be gone. I am going to hold onto them for as long as I can. He quickly drifted off to sleep.

Trent carried in dinner. Our Friday night usual, Chipotle. After a few bites a small voice came from upstairs "Mama, I can't sleep. Dada?" I snuggled with Charlie for a few minutes and listened to him as he spoke about what costumes his friend wore, a video they watched about needs and wants, and HOW excited he was the Ben H. was coming to the party tomorrow. I rubbed his head and settled him down a bit.

And now I sit with my honey on the couch. He is watching another horror Halloween flick, and I am taking the opportunity to jot down the memories of a perfectly blissful day.

Today I choose Joy, it was an easy choice.
*written on Friday, October 28th

Apples, Apples, Apples Everywhere

2011-10-31T09:05:00.000-07:00

I knew that Tommy's preschool was taking a trip to the apple farm's fun fest a few weeks back. So, I wanted to do some apple activities with him to tie into his trip.

As a family we made our annual trek out to the apple orchard. We picked about 18lbs of apples and made apple sauce...yum!

Tommy made the lower case letter "a" for apple. The boy loves anything that has to do with cutting and gluing! This was a great project to keep him busy while big brother was doing homework.

Both boys also made a fun apple poem book. This was so fun to make with them.

The cover

Eat an apple, plant the seeds

Save the core, and grow some more.

The poem is supose to go Eat an apple, save the core, plant the seeds and grow some more. I just photographed the pictures in the wrong sequence...just keeping it real people :)

And Tommy made an accordion apple picture at school. He not only colored all the apples, but also cut them out in accordion style. I think he did a great job.

Top 10 Things You Need To Know About Charlie

2011-10-21T17:50:00.000-07:00

One of Charlie's homework assignments.

10. I love school

9. I love my cat.

8. I love trains.

7. I love orange.

6. I love numbers.

5. I love my sistu.

4.I love LEGO.

3. I love STAR WARS.

2. I luve Mom.

1. I love my famley.

This is pretty much our boy to a tee. There are a few things I know we could add, like his love for Jesus, his obsession with taking things apart, his curiosity with science and learning new things, his passion for all things silly, and the comradery with his brother. He is such a sweet boy and I just love the things that he wrote down about himself.

Grateful

2011-10-20T21:40:00.000-07:00

Tonight I am feeling overwhelmed with gratitude for the life that I live, bumps, mountains, valleys and all. Life can be difficult, more then once I have been thrown a curve ball. And each time I have fallen to my knees and reached out to my Lord and Savior for guidance, love and help. I have often stumbled but I have never fallen so deep that God could not pick me up.

There have been times when I felt alone, scared, and uncertain of what the future would hold. There is no promise of a tomorrow and that can be frightening at times. However, I find great comfort is knowing that there is a promise of eternal life with Jesus, if I only believe. And believe I do, with all my heart, with every fiber of my being. There is nothing or no one that could make me believe otherwise.

To know a God that is all loving, full of mercy and grace. To have that intimate relationship with Him and know that no matter how lonely I feel, how scared I get, that He is always with me. He never leaves me, not for a second. He is all powerful, mighty and majestic. He is sweet and loving, comforting and caring.

During my moments of weakness I often think of God our father. What would my Dad here on Earth do if I was hurting, in pain? He would comfort me, probably give me a hug, bring me a milkshake :) and tell me that he loved me. I know that our Heavenly Father would do the same and on an even great level. I find so much comfort knowing this, it makes choosing happiness even in the valleys or climbing the mountains of life just a bit easier.

I feel so blessed to have a loving Heavenly Father. I am grateful for the people that he has put in my life. My husband, the man who has taken care of me, comforted me, gently rubbed my head and calmed my fears. The man who has literally put everything on hold to help me get well. He has shown his love for me and our family, time and time again through his actions. Our family is stronger because of Trent. Our family is happy and loving and kind and good, because of his example and love.

I often pray for Trent as the leader of our family. What an incredible responsibility to hold. And yet, he leads our family with such ease and confidence. I know the experiences of the last few weeks have made him an even greater leader. He has had to do things that he had never done before, make difficult decisions, and be brave and strong when I am sure he felt weak and alone. But God has been right beside him, leading him.

I feel as if our family has been protected, literally covered by God's grace these last few weeks. My heart is full of gratitude tonight for my life, for my husband, our three sweet healthy children, our family and friends that have reached out to us in our time of need. The daily phone calls checking in, emails, cards, flowers, dinners, babysitting, rides, and most importantly, prayers. There have been so many people loving on our family, it has been amazing.

I thank God for all things.

Life if good.

HaLLoWeeN of ThE pAsT

2011-10-19T21:48:00.000-07:00

Besides Christmas, Halloween is one of my FAVORITE holidays. I have always loved it, but now with three little ones it is even SO much more fun. We spend months, literally, agonizing, changing our minds and then creating most of our costumes. This year, Daddy and I are even dressing up since the boys have only begged us for two years now to do so! I LOVE Fall and all the fun activities to do around this time of year, I LOVE the cool crisp weather and changing of leaves, I even love the rain and wind. The colors are fabulous, the food is outstanding and there is just fun to be made at every corner!! I LOVE HALLOWEEN!

I started a tradition last year of pulling our pictures of Halloween past, the kids in their costumes, at the pumpkin patch etc, and decorating with them around the house. It is so fun to see how the kids have changed and what they were "into" that year, or what cutesie costume I got away with putting them in!


Bobafet and Yoda, 2005


Charlie the little Lion, 2006

Charlie, 2006

Charlie as Thomas the Train and Tommy the Great Pumpkin, 2007

Tommy the black kitty and Charlie the orange kitty, Charlie picked out the costumes and Nie Nie made them, 2008

Tyler as Percy, Charlie as the Space Train, Andrew as Thomas and Tommy as a Knight, 2009

Charlie came up with the idea of the Space Train and Mommy made it for him, 2009

Charlie as a Robot, awesome costume that Daddy made and Tommy as a Skeleton, I was induced to have Penny after we went trick or treating this year, 2010

Some of these pictures were taken years before I started keeping this journal, so I thought it would be fun to include them now. Plus, who can resist a precious kitty cat or pumpkin with striped legs?!
So much fun!!!

Mulberry Corners Pumpkin Patch 2011, A family tradition

2011-10-19T19:10:00.000-07:00

Daredevil big brother

following right behind, can't be undone

Precious babies!

Penny LOVED playing on the hay

Some of these pictures are from Trent's phone and came across so small and blurry. But they still show how much fun we had at the pumpkin patch.

We go almost every year to Mulberry Corners Pumpkin Patch. These next few pictures are from years in the past. It is fun to see how the kids have changed and how with each new year there has been another addition.

Charlie October 2006

Tommy October 2007

Penny, October 2011

Random thoughts on Charlie: Fall 2011

2011-10-19T11:24:00.000-07:00

While eating Sunday brunch, crispy bacon in hand, Charlie spouts out loud "I never knew a pig could be so dirty and taste so good!" ....has to be the quote of the month!

Charlie is doing so well in school. Each day he comes home and proudly reports "No card flipping today Mama!", their method of discipline at school. Heck, if I knew that keeping my kids in line was as simple as flipping a card from green, to yellow or red, I would of made up this card flipping thing myself!

From the time he gets home to the time he closes his eyes at night we get snippets of the happenings of the day. Out of no where he will tell me about his reading group and how he got to sit next to his "favorite" friend Ben H. or how Mrs.G got all grumpy because her smart board wasn't working. Bedtime is usually when he tells me the important things, like how he is afraid that a little girl told on him to a teacher at recess but that he didn't do anything wrong. He is scared he will get in trouble and I assure him that if he has good behavior and does the right thing that all will be ok.

I miss him terribly, sometimes it pulls at my heart strings. I still crave to have him here with me, teaching him. But I also know that he is thriving at school and is really happy. He is also really trying to be a good example and I hear about how he often will help someone or go out of his way to be a good friend. What more can a Mama want, right?!

He eagerly does his homework and can't wait to play with his brother afterwards. Whether they are playing LEGO Star Wars on the Wii or building LEGOS in the basement, I see more and more how their friendship is being cemented. I also see the almost sad look on Tommy's face when Charlie declares that he has a favorite friend at school. But we are quick to remind them that they are best friends, and always will be. Even Charlie pipes in that Tom is his bestest friend.

Charlie is so sweet I love his big hugs each morning and every afternoon. I love that he still wants me to sing his night night kitty song to him before bed every evening and how he snuggles up to my hand, holding onto it tightly. He is growing up so quickly, but there is still such an innocence to him that I just love and cherish.

Love you Charlie Bear!

Tommy's First Field Trip to the Apple Farm

2011-10-14T19:04:00.000-07:00

Tommy's preschool went on their first field trip a few weeks ago. He was SO excited and proud to be such a big boy! He was so cute and when he wasn't climbing up one of the dozen or so tractors that he could test drive, he stuck pretty close to me.

We have been to the apple farm fun fest before as a family, but that was 2 years ago and Tommy didn't remember all the fun. There was so much to do and he went from each activity, mingling with some of his friends, happy to drive the tractors by himself :)

My little farmer boy. I think one of his favorite places in on a tractor, with his Grandpa of course.

Even Penny came along for the fun. And fun we had! It was a beautiful day and I really enjoyed spending time with Tommy and Penny. Tommy was so sweet and was missing Charlie. So, when we stopped at the little apple store before leaving, he picked out an orange tractor lollipop for his Big Bro. So...sweet!

In Sickness and in Health

2011-10-14T11:45:00.000-07:00

I think that there must be many times in a marriage when you look at your spouse and you truly know that they have your back. That they love you, flaws, illnesses, quirks and all. And it is in the safety, the comfort of that love that you are able to grow strong again, to heal.

The vows we made to each other on that hot July day, are not just a group of words, a pretty sentence. They are real, they have meaning and are to be lived. I have witnessed in our marriage how when one is weak, the other one is strong and helps pick up the slack. But never before has there been a time in our marriage when not only was one weak, but one was not able to participate in the day to day basics of life. Not until two weeks ago.

Postpartum depression/anxiety isn't fun. In fact it is rather painful, mentally and physically. It takes its toll on not just the individual but the family as a whole. I am getting better everyday but it is a process.

I am thankful for a husband who has graciously and lovingly, without complaint, taken care of me and our children during these last few difficult weeks. He is my partner, my best friend, greatest fan, hero and forever love.

I love you honey Trent, now and forever!

Tender Mercies

2011-10-09T11:41:00.000-07:00

When Charlie went off to first grade, one of the things that I worried about was the relationship between the boys. They are a a little over two years a part and for the most part have done everything together, and that is the way they like it. Yes, one minute they can be throwing each other down on the floor or trying to decapitate each other with their fierce pillow fights. But I think that is how they show each other their "love" if you will. Because the other will be the first to stand up to a rude friend it he doesn't allow all brothers to play in their game, and they run to each other's rescue over big tumbles and scrapes.

There are tender moments too between brothers. Whether they are snuggled up watching a show together, loving on their sister together or playing their favorite Lego Star Wars Wii game. These two love to spend time together. So, my worries of if these two would remain best friends was proven to not be a worry at all when on the second day of school Charlie came bounding in the house with two new library books in hand. A Clifford Kitten book for himself and a Clifford "mimi" fire truck book for his brother. Charlie went on to tell me how he had been thinking of his brother and how he just knew that Tommy would love a "mimi" book.

Tender mercies....Thank you God!

Apple Picking

2011-09-25T12:18:00.000-07:00

The Children

Sillies!!

Pretty girl!

Yesterday we decided to make the short drive to one of our favorite orchards. We picked apples, grapes and tried to get a few fun pictures of the kids. It was a GLORIOUS day! Sunny, breezy, blue skies dotted with big white billowy clouds. It was lovely and it reminded me of how much I love being outside in nature with my family!

Last year when we made our trip to the orchard, this little lady was still happily swimming in my belly. I was so happy to have her actually here with us. She soaked it all in and was happy.

These three guys have my heart! Oh how I love them!!

And oh how this little lady loves her daddy!

This picture of Tommy makes me laugh. He looks upset, but he was really just being very serious about his grape picking.

We picked about 25lbs of apples and grapes. I made some grape freezer jam and plan on making apple sauce and apple dumplings. It was such a great day and we can't wait to go back!

Falling in Love

2011-09-22T07:27:00.000-07:00

These two are too much! Look at Penny's little smirk. She is a spitting image of her biggest brother!

Penny has many Lovie's. The boys picked out a pink elephant that Charlie named Ellie, before Penny was even born. It was the gift they gave her at the hospital after birth. Her cousins also bought her a lovie. A white bunny with a soft pink blanket. And then there is Teddy, or Ted. A very small white-ish teddy bear. He was the first thing I allowed in her crib with her and choose him because he was so tiny.

But despite having all her lovies, she does favor Ted, she hasn't really formed any real attachments with them. She has however, fallen head over heels for Charlie's Lovie! She squeals when she sees Lovie and clasps him in her chubby little hands. Charlie allows her to play with Lovie, but always laughs and says "Oh Penny!", because Lovie always come back to him covered in a blanket of Penny slobber :)

When I bought Lovie for Charlie, before he was born, I also bought a replacement Lovie. Yes, it is true, there is more then one Lovie! I hid second Lovie deep in my dresser and he is identity was never revealed. Until the other day. Charlie was playing with Penny in the kitchen and commenting how he wished there was another Lovie that Penny could have, just like his. I asked him how that would make him feel if he knew there was another Lovie. I didn't want to spoil the love he has for her because it is so sweet. It didn't phase him at all and he was more then excited to find out that he could give his little sister a Lovie that she loved.

In fact, when he placed the brand new looking Lovie on Penny's highchair tray and she grabbed him up like she was going to devour his blue velour, Charlie explained "Look Mama! She is falling in love!".

Sweetest boy ever! And now Penny has her own true Lovie.

Joy Challange

2011-09-20T11:27:00.000-07:00

My attitutude and spreading joy has been something I have been working on lately. I truly believe that regardless of what life is dealing me at the moment, I can still choose to be happy and find joy in our everyday. It is also a choice as to how I react to situations. Amy I loving? Am I gentle? Am I kind? Am I thoughtful? or Am I angry, frustrated, biter, mean and unhappy?

I am by no means a perfect person. I have many flaws and I fall short in my attitude and how I treat people on a daily basis. I know it when I have stumbled and it always humbles me and brings me to my knees. I definitely need God's grace!

But negativity abounds! It is everywhere and frankly, I don't want to participate any longer. I am more then guilty of complaining, being ungrateful and having a negative perspective. And so in another attempt to find more Joy and ultimately change my attitude, I am participating in a Joy Challange. Each day in the month of October, regardless of what is going on, I will make a list of at least one thing I am grateful for or see Joy in. I hope to be able to write more then one thing, but for me it really has to have meaning for the context of the day.

The First Week and Missing the boy

2011-09-19T07:35:00.000-07:00

The first week at school has gone better then we all expected. Tom or Thomas as he introduced himself to his new little friends, he is pure cuteness!, fit right in to his new routine. The mornings that he is at school literally are a blink of an eye and then he is back at home. The big news from Prek is usually what snack they had. They sure know the way to my boys heart! The rest of the day he is my right hand man, and thoroughly enjoying it! He is eating up all the attention and one on one time. The change has been good for him.

Charlie has done well too. He aced his first ever spelling test, woot! woot! and his handwriting has improved immensely this week. He had a bit of homework which he finished in no time at all, and with no complaints! He also seems much more relaxed, and his "motor" seems to have settled a bit. I think the day is long for him though, and he is usually pretty tired when he comes home. But that makes for good snuggling time with Mama!!! He has LOVED riding the bus and has had some great teachable moments. He has had the opportunity to teach others how to be a good friend and our little evangelical even talked to a boy in the bus line about God! The conversation went something like this:

Charlie: "God is the BEST!"
Boy in bus line: "No, my Dad is the BEST!"
Charlie: "God made the WHOLE world! So He is the best!"
Boy in bus line: "My Dad made a world too"
Charlie: "Your Dad isn't God, so he only made a pretend world. Like a globe"

Love it!! I couldn't get out of him how the conversation started between him and the bus line boy. But it doesn't matter! And what was even cooler what that he connected what he said to the boy about God with the lesson he learned at Sunday school last week. Which was about how we shouldn't keep Jesus to ourselves, but give him away to others so that they will know him too. He told me all about it at bedtime, sweet boy! I told him that talking to that little boy about God was the greatest thing he did all week and that I was very proud of him.

But I can't help but miss the boy something terrible! And I am not the only one either! The day is just too long for all of us. We are all carrying around Charlie's Lovie during the day, even Penny. Tommy told me that Lovie was crying for Charlie, then patted Lovie on the head and in the sweetest voice said "it okay Lovie, Charlie love you and be home soon". Pitter patter my little heart!

And after we dropped Charlie off this morning I hear a little voice from the backseat,
Tom: "Mom, I miss my Charlie"
Me: "I know buddy, I do too. But he will be home soon"
Tom: "I all alone back here. I need Charlie to sit with me. Mom, when you grow up you sit with me back here?" Too cute!

So the week has gone good. We are all adjusting. There have been no tantrums or tears, expect on from me...tears, not tantrums :) But each day is a bit easier. And I can tell you that I have never looked more forward to the weekend then I do today!!! I don't want to do anything but all climb in our bed, snuggle up with the boys and stay there all day!

Boys, we are so proud of you! You guys are doing great at school and we are excited to see all the fun stuff you will learn!! Love you tons!
Mommy

First Day of School

2011-09-13T11:53:00.000-07:00

The boys started school today. Charlie is in first grade and Tommy, PreK.

After we told the boys that we would no longer be homeschooling we had two days of major complaints. Charlie took it the hardest. But after two days both boys turned a corner and started to get really excited for the new adventure that lay before them. I think the matching Mario Kart backpacks and light up Spider Man shoes helped :)

Tommy was ready to go to school last week. In fact when we went to church on Sunday he loaded up his backpack and had it in the car ready to go. He thought we were going to school, not church. On his first day of school he had a great time. He told me that he wanted me to take him first in the morning because he was so excited. Then when we got there he said he wanted to walk in by himself :) Even though he had so much fun, he said the best part was at the end when I picked him up. What a sweet boy!

And this little stinker had a good day too. I love his new little smirk! I think the adjustment will be the hardest on him since he is older and going for a longer period of time. But he has a great teacher and she is more then happy to help him transition. In fact, she emailed me 2 times the first day with updates. Charlie did have a great first day and talked in detail about some projects they made, games he played with the other kids etc. They also tested him on his reading skills. This is something that they do for all new students in the district. Our boy who doesn't love reading, scored very well and his teacher was rather impressed ;) So proud of our little guy!!!

So, the first day went better then we expected and everyone had fun! The house was strangely quiet and by 10am I was calling Trent telling him how painful the silence was :) I truly missed our boys but I was so happy that they were happy and doing so well.

10 months, Penny Jane

2011-09-11T16:56:00.000-07:00

Penny is 10 months old. I can barely believe that I am already thinking about her 1st birthday party! CRAZY!

The girl is such a peach, great personality, fabulous smile. She loves to give hugs and open mouth kisses. :)

She also is developing a fierce independence when it comes to her food. She only wants food that she can feed to herself and then she is picky at best.

Miss Penny now has 6 teeth. She cut three at the same time and was a trooper even though it was obvious that she was not comfortable. She is also now taking more milk by a cup/bottle but still prefers to nurse.

She is also starting to stand a little bit more and has taken a few steps while holding on to our hands. Her legs are still so wobbly and I doubt that she will be walking before the year mark. Which is just fine with me!

She is also a bit sneaky and LOVES to try and eat our shoes that hang out by the back door. Gross, I know. She will do a mad crazy army crawl dash across the room, stop and look at me with the same sneaky little look like in the picture above. Once she knows I have seen her, she lets out a squeal and then whips around and races for the shoes. I always catch her in time :)

I think my favorite thing that has happened this month with Penny is that her sweet whispy hair has started to come in a bit more in the back. It actually has a curl to it and Penny loves to play with it while she falls asleep on my chest. She also has started to rub her ear like I have done since I was a little girl :) So sweet!

We love you to pieces Miss Penny and are having the best time watching you grow!

A New Season

2011-09-08T17:21:00.000-07:00

Some of our fondest memories of homeschooling the last 2 years.

The boys have really changed during this time, grown in so many ways.

They have learned to read, write, and cherish time together as a family. The latter being the most important to me.

From the very beginning we said that we would keep an open mind to their schooling. I have often prayed that God would direct us in this area for we can not raise these babies without Him!

So, with a peace that I have not felt in a long time but with also a sad heart, we have decided to end our homeschooling days. I am excited for our boys and the adventures that await them and yet hesitant, but trusting.

Charlie and Tommy, I have loved being your teacher and will continue to be. Whether you are in a traditional school, or at home, it doesn't matter. Our family is based on love. Built on faith, loyalty, and friendship. We will continue to teach you of Jesus' love, and the truly important things in life. We will always look back on the last 2 years with fond memories and a grateful heart for time spent together. We are so proud of all the things that you have learned, all the fun things we have done and the miles and miles of growth you have made! You are wonderful boys, God's greatest gift to us and we cherish each and every moment we spend with you. We are excited for all the things you will learn, the fun you will have and the friends you will make.

We love you.

Love,

Daddy and Mommy

Happiness is.......

2011-09-04T16:44:00.000-07:00

Brotherly love, April 2009

Happiness is after a long day of constant correcting of bad behavior and refereeing of two stubborn brothers, to have a certain youngest son plant sweet, gentle kisses atop my head and the head of his older brother as we lay snuggled up in bed.

Tender mercies!

To Be Four

2011-09-02T17:40:00.000-07:00

Favorite Summertime Game

Hopscotch on the drive

Wearing mismatched socks with Crocs in 90 degree weather

Silly

Sweet

The baby boy

God is Wild About Us!

2011-09-01T17:40:00.000-07:00

This was Charlie's second year attending VBS at our church. The theme this year was Pandamania, God is Wild About Us. Our church family does an amazing job with the decorations, creative snacks and crafts and most importantly, getting the message of God's love across to the kiddos.

This was Charlie's best buddy at camp this year. They were beyond silly together and really gave their counselor a run for his money! Gary, their counselor was so cute and told the boys that they should really try and stay buddies even after VBS was over. I think a playdate is in order :) Charlie's favorite part was the snacks. They were really awesome and the kids were usually allowed to assemble their own snacks, so that made it even more fun.

Each day we would drop off and pick up Charlie in the new gym at church where they would hear any announcements and sing songs from the God is Wild About Us cd. The music is LOUD and the kids go nuts! They do hand motions for the songs and dance. It is really electric and you can really feel the Spirit!

Tommy can't wait until next year when he gets to go to VBS at our church with Charlie. I hope that in the next few years I will be at a place where I can volunteer and give back a bit. I think it is a wonderful program that they offer to children from our church and from the area, it is open to anyone. I hope that when the kids are grown and think about the summer of their youth, that they remember with fond memories learning about God's love at VBS.

Michigan Fun

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We packed the van up again and headed North this time. Aunt Patti and Uncle Sherman's house in Michigan was our final destination. They live in a beautiful log house that they had built 18 some years ago. It is a large, comfortable, warm home. It just oozes their personalities and is generously sprinkled with ancient artifacts that Sherman has found metal detecting all over the world and beautiful crafts and quilts that Patti has bought or made herself. The house is located back off the road, nestled in the woods with a lush garden on one side of the long circle drive. It is surrounded by green on 3 sides and a beautiful easy flowing river on the other.

We had a great time at a children's museum that Aunt Patti wanted to take us to. It had a ton of fun exhibits for the kids, and adults, to explore.

Trent and Tom working on the canal exhibit

Go Aunt Patti!

Aunt Patti and Penny, who was missing her nap and not happy about it!

Bass Man

Uncle Sherman, Nana, Penny and Charlie building trucks

Charlie and his love of gears

We had such a nice visit, chatting, eating, playing in the rain, chatting, going to a children's museum, chatting, walking around their small town, getting hair cuts at the local barber shop, going for tractor rides, playing board games, eating ice cream at the ice cream parlor, spending time as a family, eating some more, taking boat rides on the river, laughing, having dinner with friends, watching movies and just having a really nice visit. The only downer of the weekend was not being able to visit our dear friends in a near by town. Now we have another reason to go back :)

Penny love

Uncle Sherm gives Charlie a ride

We can't wait to go back! Love you Aunt Patti and Uncle Sherman!! Thanks for a great weekend!

School Wrap Up 2010-2011

2011-08-11T11:29:00.000-07:00

Ok, so I am WAY behind on writing about our first year of "official" hscholing (home schooling). Better late then never :)

A lot happened this year and in the midst of it all we started our hscholing adventure. I was at the end of a difficult pregnancy, our beloved Nie Nie passed away suddenly, a little sister was born and then was hospitalized for RSV a few short months later, and then just throw in there everyday life. To say the last year was a challenge is an understatement. But even though there were many rough "life" moments, we still accomplished A LOT and had A LOT of fun in our first year of hschooling!

I learned a lot about my oldest little red headed boy and our relationship grew in many ways, ways I never would of even thought! My favorite part of the year was watching all the little "light bulb" moments when something would sink and he would "get it"! At the beginning of the year I was so worried if I would be able to teach Charlie to read, it was really my biggest fears about hschooling. Being able to read and read well, is such an important foundation for ones' educational career, let alone life! I was grateful to be the one to watch him on the road to reading. To be with him when he read his first word, sentence and then book! We are so proud of him and all the accomplishments that he made this year!

Looking back on this year I can definitely say it wasn't so much about what Charlie learned, but learning how he learns. Our boy is a mover, full of energy and needs a lot of reminders to stay on task. So, pretty much like every other 6 year old little boy ;) He needs lots of activity and learns best mid morning. He also does very well with manipulatives and hands on projects.

I quickly learned that if he had a good grasp on a math subject then he didn't need to do 4 weeks of review, one was more then enough for him and he retained the information when I would go back and review with him. We worked closely with his K12 "teacher" and she encouraged us to work at a pace that was good for Charlie. Some subjects we sailed through, others we stayed on target. Charlie finished some of his subjects in April, and was completed with his work in the beginning of May. The school year officially ended in June. We didn't follow the K12 school year, but took off time when we needed to...like when baby sister was born :)

Charlie's favorite activities this year included writing in his journal, specifically making up "Choo Choo stories" and the LEGO class that he participated in at our co-op. We both really enjoyed all the time we spent together, especially our reading time snuggled up on the couch.

Not only did I learn a lot about Charlie this year, but I also learned a lot about myself. I am learning how to be more organized and seeing how that greatly affects the atmosphere in our home. I also was reminded how more times then not, less is actually more and that I need to even further simplify our lives! It was also made very apparent to me this year that I must carve out even 10-15 minutes a day for reading the scriptures and prayer time. My life is full to the brim with responsibilities. I rarely have a quiet moment during the day to myself (not even in the bathroom :), and I would NOT have it any other way. But, I have to make my relationship with the Lord first and foremost! Even if that means that something else does not get done for the day!

This year was such a blessing! I am so grateful to be able to educate our children at home. I am happy that they are enjoying their school time and look forward to it (they are still kids and will sometimes cringe when I say "school time!" :). There were plenty of struggles and challenges, tears were shed and voices raised, but there was much more joy, happiness, learning and love that was experienced!! It was far better then I could of expected!

My Dearest Charlie,
I had so much fun with you this year. Learning right along side of you and watching you grow! I pray that God will guide me as your Mommy and teacher, that I might follow His plan for you in all areas of your life! I am so grateful for the time we got to spend together! It is priceless and I will cherish this year for all my life! I love you so much and I am so excited to see all the cool things you will do this year as a BIG first grader!!!
Love you baby!
Love,
Mommy

We embrace the next year wholeheartedly, excited to see what God has in store for us!

Penelope Jane: 9 months

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This little girl blesses our hearts and home everyday. She is so sweet and so fun to be with.
At nine months she is:
*still not thrilled with baby food and would prefer regular food. All though, nursing is still her main source of nutrition and comfort.
*still doing the "army crawl" all over the house, getting into lots of trouble and has started to terrorize her brothers :)

*still very pleasant, happy, sweet, very lovable and likes to be held
*can play independently for short periods of time
*LOVES the cat and dog and will "chase" them around the house and squeal and chatter away at them
*definitely has a voice of her own and is rather chatty at times
*has a definite affection for other babies, and loves her dollie. She also like the dolls that have eyes that open and close and she is fascinated with them. She will sit for a long period of time, opening the eyelids with her tiny finger. She also likes to now try and open my eyelids!

*she is getting her 3rd tooth! Her top left tooth, and it isn't pretty :(
*still getting up a few times a night to nurse, but sleeping longer stretches
*still taking 2 naps, and sleeps from about 6pm-7am
*weighs 20lbs, wears 12 months clothing
*she has gone to the nursery at church a few times and has had a rough time of it, but we will keep trying!
*still smitten with her Daddy and brothers!
Miss Penny,
We love you so much and we are so excited to watch you grow. You are such a joy and a blessing. Your sweet smile is just contagious and you fill our home with such warmth and love. We thank God everyday for you!! Love you sweet girl!
Love,
Mommy

Happiness is.....

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being surrounded by our babies.

The Homestead

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One of our favorite places on Earth.

Grandpa's Birthday Weekend In The Country

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Penny spending time with Grandpa

Honey Trent

Me and the babies

Charlie and Red

Bath time

Thomas

Picking Nie Nie's raspberries

Harvesting the raspberries

Grandpa blowing out the non existent candles :)

Happy Birthday Grandpa!! We love you.

J.O.Y

2011-07-26T07:42:00.000-07:00

I’ve got a joy, joy, joy, joy down in my heart
Down in my heart, down in my heart

I’ve got a joy, joy, joy, joy down in my heart
Down in my heart to stay.

And I’m so happy, so very happy
I got a love of JESUS in my heart
And I’m so happy, so very happy
I got a love of JESUS in my heart

I’ve got the love of JESUS down in my heart
Down in my heart, Down in my heart
I’ve got the love of JESUS down in my heart..
Down in my heart to stay..

I’ve got a peace that passes understanding
Down in my heart, Down in my heart! Down in my heart!
I’ve got the peace that passes understanding down in my heart
Down in my heart to stay.

*I remember singing this song as a little girl at Sunday school. I remember that "Joy" I felt signing it, meaning every word. I have loved Jesus for as long as I can remember. He has been "down in my heart" all these years, even though there have been times that I haven't necessarily reached out to him.

*I have been reading A.LOT lately. All kinds of books about all kinds of subjects. I am gleaning so much from so many of the authors, all of them moms just like me that love the Lord and strive to live a Godly life. And just like me, they are all human and often fall short. The amazing thing is though that God never takes back His grace and He is oh, so willing to share His mercy.

*An underlying theme in some of the books that I have been reading is about J.O.Y.   To find joy in all things. The way to do this is to keep Jesus first, Others second, and Yourself last. I have to say that I am amazed at the changes that take place in my heart when I do this. This is also hard for me to do because I can be a selfish and self centered person. And even though I think I will always struggle with those traits at varying degrees, I also know that they can be changed and that my heart can be softened even further. My heart has come a long way, but has even further to go.   Today, I am choosing to live with J.O.Y in my life.

*I also want Trent and our children to know that I find complete joy in being his wife and their mother. There is no greater job for me, no where I would rather be. Everyday I say prayers of thanksgiving to God for the family I have been blessed with. My heart often fills full to the point of overflowing when I think of how much I am in love with my husband and how dear our children are to me. But how often do my dear sweet ones know those true feelings, and not because I have told them 1,000 times, but because they feel them and SEE them in my actions?

*Something else I am taking away from my list of good reads is to keep a gentle spirit and a quiet voice. I am really trying to not get frustrated with the kids and raise my voice or ask them 10 times to do something...which only makes me more frustrated. I have started to correct their behavior right away and do so in a loving but firm way. I have stopped yelling requests from a different room only to not be "heard". I have also started to praise them more and encourage them more, trying to see all the good things that they do and give my expectations to the Lord. When asking them to complete a task, I am now showing them how to do it and then letting them do it while I observe them and then offering further instruction if needed.   Seems pretty basic, simple common sense methods, but sometimes I really need things spelled out for me.

I have been really trying to keep my voice low and come to the children from a place of complete love and patience. (As I write this during our quiet time, Tommy just pushed the limits and ending up head butting me in the mouth, a bloody fat lip is the result. I can honestly say that I am trying to do these things, but sometimes, like 3 minutes ago, my first impulse is to react. ) But even though I am still prone to not react from a gentle, loving place, there are more times of late that I do react in a positive way. Within a few days of trying on my new gentle voice Charlie told me 2 times that I was being so "kind" to him. Both boys have also been much better with their listening and I don't get frustrated with them as much.

*There is so much joy in my life and I want those that I love dearly to see that joy on a daily basis. I am encouraged to know that I don't have to be "perfect" in this quest, that there are other moms out there just like me who are trying to raise Godly children and live in a Godly marriage. I am also excited to know that the flaws and character defects that I have held on to for so long can be changed. All I need to do is continue to give my life to God, He will do the rest.

Some of the scripture that I have been encouraged by lately:

The Holy Spirit-he will teach you everything and will remind you of everything I have told you. I am leaving you with a gift-peace of mind and heart. And the peace I give is a gift the world cannot give. So don't be troubled or afraid.   John 15:26-27

Here on earth you will have many trials and sorrows. But take heart, because I have overcome the world John 16:33

Wherever your treasure is, there the desires of your heart will also be. Matthew 6:21

Keep on asking, and you will receive what you ask for. Keep on seeking and you will find. Keep on knocking and the door will be opened to you. For everyone who asks, receives. Everyone who seeks, finds. And to everyone who knocks, the door will be opened. Matthew 7:7-8

This is my favorite. Every day I find joy in the life the God has provided but I am still a sinner, imperfect, fearful, selfish. If I were made perfect I would not need to seek the mercy and grace of the Lord. I truly believe that it is through my struggles and moments of doubt that my relationship with God deepens and becomes stronger.

My grace is all you need. My power works best in weakness. 2 Corinthians 12:8

Lake Trip Part III: Midway Park

2011-07-25T11:42:00.000-07:00

Midway Park is one of our favorite places to visit when at the lake.

Trent often went here when he was young and most of the rides are still same from way back then.

All of the boys LOVE this roller coaster. Charlie opted to ride by himself this year, so brave!

This photo proves I should always listen to my gutt. My gut said "Don't listen to the 16 year old carnival boy who says that Tommy can ride on Charlie's lap because if he does they are going to fall off this slide". 10.2 seconds later they fell off the slide. Thankfully, no one was hurt but they didn't ask to go on it again!

Me and My Babies


Daddy and Tommy.

Charlie's favorite ride, the Handcar Train

Even little brother could ride this year!

Precious!

A trip to the lake would not be complete without a trip to Midway Park.

Lake Trip Part II: Fishing with Daddy

2011-07-23T11:32:00.000-07:00

*fishing off the dock with Dad, both boys caught fish this year and after one fishing adventure where 3 fish were fighting over Charlie's worm, he came running to me on the beach yelling "it is AMAZING MOM!!, just AMAZING!!" I think he finally caught the fishing fever!

Lake Trip 2011 Part I

2011-07-21T11:31:00.000-07:00

Our beloved lake.

We spent a glorious week at the lake, Lake Chautauqua in New York state. It is one of our favorite places, we truly love it there. I think a sense of true serenity just drapes over us. I know that the boys will have fond memories of our summers spent by the lake and that is so important to us!

Things we loved about the lake this year:
1. swimming at Mayville Beach and spending the 4th of July there at a small carnival that was going on. It was so much fun to be right on the end of the lake, swimming, tasting yummy food, dancing, playing on the playground, listening to live music and being together as a family.

Being cute

Tom riding on the train at the 4th of July carnival


Charlie playing games with Dad at the carnival

Dancing at the 4th of July carnival

*playing on the "Train" playground, even though the train was under construction. But the tug boats were a second favorite.

I love this boy!

*Ice cream at Bemus Point, except for when Penny decided that it was now a good time to break her week long hiatus from her normal plumbing routine and I had forgotten the wipes. Lovely :) But the ice cream was good and we always enjoy Bemus Point!

*visiting with family

Spending time with Great Grams

*Traveling around to all of Trent's old haunts. I think it is so cool that we get to spend our summers where he spent his first years as a small boy.


T1 Our Lake House

*nightly fires making smores with Daddy

SMORES!!

*spending lots of time with Daddy, such a treat!

Our annual wooden model extravaganza with Daddy

View off the porch, the lake is beyond the trees

*watching the boys finally sleep in the same room together without trying to ~~kill~~ wrestle each other to sleep ;) (and they are now going to sleep at the same time in the big boys room at home!!! Halleluiah!!!)
*going to bed early and the feel of cool sheets from home while laying next to my sweetie!

Early morning breakfast and crafts!

*having meals out on the deck, especially early morning breakfasts with the kids as Daddy caught some extra sleep
*having that feeling of not needing to be anywhere at any certain time
*spending time as a family. It doesn't matter where we are or what we are doing, as long as we are together!
*doing one of our favorite things as a family, going for a hike in the woods


Thanks Baby for working so hard so that we can enjoy this time together at one of our favorite places!

Penelope Jane 8 months young

2011-07-14T12:00:00.000-07:00

Penny at Lake Chautauqua

Our Penelope Jane has just blossomed this last month. She is doing so many new and exciting things. I am in awe of how quickly she is changing and cherishing each day with her.

Her new "tricks" this month are:
*waving "hi"
*clapping hands especially when you say "Yeah!". She gives you that big beautiful smile and just squeals. It is so precious!
*army crawling ALL over the place. Now she can chase the cat! Sammie is such a glutton for punishment though, and will just sit there as she ~~beats~~ pets him with her little hand. He has loved all the babies and you will often find him curled up laying with one of them.
*sits completely independently now, and can get herself from a sitting position to her belly to crawl around.
*she is babbling and squealing all the time.
*she self feeds, loves steamed apples and carrots. She almost always refuses baby food now. I am trying to come up with soft foods that she can eat. She pretty much has liked everything I have given her so far, avocado, brown rice, Spanish rice, cheerios, puffs, freeze dried fruit, chicken, pork, turkey, spaghetti.
*Still on the same sleep schedule. 2 naps, in bed for the night between 6-6:30pm and up by 7:30am. She still wake 2-3 times a night to eat. However, just last night she went to bed at 6pm, up at 10pm to eat and then slept until 7am!! It was the longest stretch she has ever had. Yes, I like my sleep but I am not in a hurry for her to drop all of her middle of the night feedings just yet. I know once she does I will miss them.
*weighs 20lbs
*still only has 2 bottom teeth and I don't see anymore coming through
*her hair is getting a bit longer on the sides, she often sports little strawberry blond wisps and they are adorable.
*she LOVES the water and tries to swim in the pool and drink the water (gross!). she kicks her little legs in the water and splashes and squeals. Looks like we have another little fish on our hands :)
*her best friends are Charlie and Tommy. Those boys can seriously make her laugh. Charlie has been so attentive to her lately and is always wanting to hold her. Tommy sings her silly songs and speaks baby to her, which she loves to no end.
*she is also becoming a Daddy's girl. If Trent is in the room she always reaches for him and flashes him her beautiful smile.
*she is still a very content baby. She only fusses when she is tired or hungry and is full of smiles and belly laughs.

Penny,
Being your Mommy is such a joy. I smile every time I see you. Your little face is so beautiful. I love your big sparkly blue eyes and that ear to ear grin of yours is just precious.
    I love how you give your Daddy and brothers kisses before bed and how you snuggle your head in the crook of my neck when I get you up from naps. I love peaking in on you as you sleep on your belly with your tooshie in the air and arms tucked under your belly, little feet crossed at the ankles.
   You are the sweetest girl and all of us are so grateful for you.
    Love you to pieces little girl!
   Love,
   Mama

Goodbye June

2011-06-29T18:38:00.000-07:00

I can barely believe that June is almost but a memory! I feel like summer has just started and yet we are already at the midway point. June has been a whirlwind of fun, work, challanges and much growth. We started the month off with Trent graduating from college with a degree in business management. I have been so excited for him and proud of this huge accomplishment. However, he hasn't been able to enjoy some the well deserved "down" time from not having to write papers, study for tests or attend his weekly classes, because he has been traveling for work most of the month. Literally home for a night or two, only to pack up and leave again. It has been exhausting, for both of us. But there is light at the end of the tunnel and in a few short days we leave for our annual lake vacation, as a family, together! We are all very excited and counting down the days.

But despite our crazy schedule, we also had a lot of fun to the beginning of our summer.

Tommy at "his" VBS camp.

Crafts on the back porch

They love projects.

We have laughed a lot.

And spent some learning and trying new things.

Planted a garden.

And made homemade ice cream in a bag.

Charlie said it was the best ice cream he has ever had!

We made lots of fun, cold, treats.

And some pretty precious moments.

We have spent lots of time at the play ground

and have had some great laughs.

We have learned about money

and played a lot of games.

Made some smoothies

and learned about giving.

Had a fairy visit, or two


and read a bunch of books.

And that is just a bit of our fun, crazy, month called June.

Happy Daddy Day 2011

2011-06-27T18:38:00.000-07:00

Letters to the Daddy's in my life:

Dear Honey Trent,

       Tommy came crawling into our bed again last night, crying because he missed his Dada. He snuggled up next to me on your side of the bed, I think he feels closer to you there. It was sweet, and reminded me of how much that boy loves you.
    Tommy loves you with an intensity, Charlie loves you with his silliness, Penny loves with her smile and I love you with my entire being. That is a lot of love! And you handle it all so well!
     You work all day, long, stressful hours, to come home to two boys who have been wanting you all day. Their energy can be exhausting, I know, but you rise to the occasion and give hugs and kisses all around. You make or finish up dinner, you wash the kitchen table, you play trains or race track, you kiss a sweet girls forehead goodnight. You exercise the dog, you mow the grass with you helper, you wash 20 dirty toes, you help the boy with his reading, you run out for a treat, and you endure one of "my shows" just so we can sit and be together. You are not only present, but you live our life with such a zest and that rubs off on all of us.
    I pray that our boys will be just like you when they grow up. I pray that they will be the same kind of Daddy that you are. Many men are Fathers, but it takes a special man to be a Daddy. And special you are!

Playing "Knights" with Daddy, their Father's Day present to Trent

We love you!

Letter to my Daddy on Father's Day.

Dad,
When I was little girl one of my favorite things to do was go for walks with you back in the quarry. I often was scared by the snakes that lurked in the crevices of the big rocks and even by the stillness of the woods. But I was always confident that I would be ok because my Daddy was with me. You were strong and tall, firm, knowledgeable and kind.
Even today, though I am not such a little girl anymore, I still find that same comfort and security in your love. And the best part is that now you have 3 more little buddies, to take on walks and teach how to drive John Deere tractors. I see them building some of the same kind of memories with you that I did when I was little, it warms my heart.
Thanks Daddy for the Godly, real, example of what life can look like when you try your best. Sometimes life is really hard, but it is a whole lot easier when you let God on your side....I learned that from you!
Love you Dad, you are the best!

Grandpa and the crew

Today, June 20, 2011

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Today is Monday. A lot of people dread Mondays, but I really like them. A new week starts, fresh and new. Monday brings the promise of great things to be had, another week of adventures. Don't get me wrong, I LOVE me a good Friday and cherish our weekend family time. But I think that Mondays get a bad wrap.

We are in full summer throttle over here. Camp, swim lessons, eating out on the porch, lazy late afternoon siestas, ice cream stops, weekly hikes, creek walks, vacation planning. I am loving it! I have to admit that I feel guilty, I definitely have the better end of the deal here. Not that my job isn't difficult, I just happen to really like my employers.

I am so grateful for days like today. Spending time with our children, watching them grow, teaching them about life. I am learning that the level of serenity in our home is greatly influenced by my attitude. Even when the day is full of whining, fighting and tantrums, if I my response is firm but calm, everything seems to run so much smoother.

Today hasn't been perfect by any means, Trent is out of town and I miss him terribly, the boys both got little cuts at the pool and had complete melt downs on the way home etc. But we have also had so much fun, laughed a lot and shared some good cuddles along the way. I just love days like today when I am full of peace, love for my family, and hope that all the little wrinkles in our daily life eventually get ironed out. I have had so many moments lately where I am filled with excitement for what adventures tomorrow holds, even the bruised knees and numerous time outs!

Happiness is...............

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celebrating the awesomeness that is my husband and how hard he has worked over the last 4 years to get his degree in Business Management!!

Honey, I am SO proud of you!! The journey was long and difficult at times but you did it and you did it well!! Thank you for working so hard for our family. You are an inspiration to me and a wonderful role model to our children!

Love you baby!!

Life Lessons

2011-06-16T21:31:00.000-07:00

Trent and Charlie, March 21, 2006

Life lessons I have learned this week.

*I don't need a break (a few weeks, days or hours) from my kids, my husband or my "life". And if I feel that way then I just need to stick closer to the Big Guy, you know, God. Even though I have learned this week that I get way more accomplished around here when one kiddo is off doing fun stuff, I have also learned that then the house is strangely quiet and I would rather have the noise and all my little buddies, then an empty yet clean house :)

*It is really ok to leave dirty dishes in the sink over night.

*A stern, loud voice can break a spirit. A gentle, yet firm voice can settle even the silliest of boys.

*Chocolate chip cookies don't taste as good as they use to.

*Life and death happen, but God has it all under control.

*I need to be more flexible and I am not talking about my body.

*I love my husband, I really, really, really love him. ( I didn't just learn that this week though!)

* The kids daily devotion was about letting vile things come from your mouth. They used a story about 2 little girls that were talking badly about a friend. The story went on to say how God wants to be nice to others and not say mean things. I think I need to be a better example of this to our children and my husband. How often do they hear me not using the nicest words to describe someone or something. How often do I run to Trent and "unload" my opinions and judgement of others. Not too pretty.

*One of the biggest gifts I have been given is TODAY, right now. So, what am I going to do with it?

Random Thoughts: Charlie

2011-06-15T17:25:00.000-07:00

I was running around the house today during quiet time when I glanced over at Charlie lounging on the couch. He stopped me in my tracks. I took a long look at him and thought "So that is what he is going to look like when he is a teenager". Seriously, he looked so old and big to me and looking at him gave me the feeling of being a teenager lounging in the summer heat without a care in world. Not sure I like this growing up stuff.

Besides getting big on us, he has been oh, so sweet. I just love this kid. I just love that when I sing him his "good night" song that he has to be looking at me...so precious! I just love that he is so loving and gentle with his little sister. I love that he is so creative and is always making cool vehicles and robots out of his LEGOs to show me. I love that he is my buddy.

Squires Castle

2011-06-12T11:14:00.000-07:00

Over the weekend we went to one of our favorite places, Squire's Castle. It was built by oil pioneer Feargus Squire and was originally intended to be the gatekeepers lodge for a much larger estate. The estate was never constructed. However, Squire used the castle as a weekend retreat in the early 1900's. It is now part of the Cleveland Metroparks. We are so fortunate to have these beautiful parks within a short drive from our home.

The boys love it here! Charlie informed us on the drive out that he was going to be the dragon, Daddy was the King, I was the Queen, Penny was to be the Princess and Tommy was the Knight that would protect us. Tommy piped up from the backseat as well and said "Mama, I protect you!" They are such cute boys and I just love their imagination!

The castle is only a shell of the original structure. There are no doors or windows and it is open to the elements. It is maintained by the park and still very cool to wander or run through.

The castle is surrounded by the acres of dense woods. There are some paved paths and some dirt paths that wind you around a small creek. We took a short walk through the woods, one of our favorite places to be!

These lazy Sunday afternoons are some of my favorite times as a family. We slow way down and go on small adventures. We always have a good time, because we are together.

Happiness is......

2011-06-11T10:37:00.000-07:00

watching this boy over come his fear of swings while he flies through the air. What a difference a year makes!

A visit

2011-06-10T11:00:00.000-07:00

Uncle Jason and Nicole came for a visit.

It was the first time they had meet Penny

and

that we had met Nicole.

It was a beautiful day and we sat on the back porch

and talked while the boys played in the shade of the big maple tree.

Then Trent grilled up some hamburgers and we munched

corn on the cob,

pasta salad

and

fresh watermelon.

We sipped lemonade

and talked some more

and then it was time for goodbyes.

It was such a nice visit and we hope to see them again soon!

Waking up is easy to do.....

2011-06-09T08:00:00.000-07:00

when your little sister comes in for a snuggle

and when your big brother gives you a super big hug.

Waking up is easy to do

When you have your binks and Mickey to help you.

Everyday when naps are over, Penny and I go in to wake Tommy up. He still will take a 2-3 hour nap if I let him! He LOVES to wake up to his little sister snuggling in bed with him. He sings her silly songs and touches her little button nose, they hug, she gives him open mouth wet sloppy baby kisses and he say "gwwwwwwosssss baby!" and laughs.

I had to capture not only our naptime ritual, but also Tommy's binks. He is in love with them, literally! He loves his Mickey and his blue blankie, but binks have been his security blanket of sorts. We held off taking them from him with all the changes that have occurred in the last 18 months. But now it is time for them to make their exit. He had 10 of them and they are like little action figures to him. He lines them up on his bed, talks to them, has them talk to each other. It is rather cute to listen too. But over time he has broken them, one by one. Now there is only 2 good ones left and it will only be a matter of weeks, days, before they are broken too. He keeps the broken binks and holds them in his hand while he sleeps. We have told him that when they are all broken that is it, no new binks. He can keep the broken ones if he wants and he seems to find comfort in that. He will also get a trip to the toy store to pick out a new toy or lovie, something small, but of his choice. He is excited about that, so hopefully it will help with the blow of not having his binks anymore.

It is funny, but as his mom, I too have an attachment with his binks, with anything he loves really. Same goes for Charlie's Lovie and Kitty. God forbid something ever happened to them. I think I would be just as sad as the boys would be. It is hard to watch my babies grow up, a right of passage I know, and I am grateful they are healthy and growing. But I still wish I could bottle their baby days and snuggle chubby baby boys just a little more..

Happiness is...........

2011-06-08T07:57:00.000-07:00

Happiness is....

hugs from my girl.

7 months

2011-06-07T17:24:00.000-07:00

How can it be?! Time seems to be picking up speed. Wasn't it just yesterday that I was typing up Penny's 6 month post....sniff!

Anywho, Miss Penny has been doing lots of fun stuff this month!
*Charlie was laying next to her and when I asked her where Charlie was she looked at him and smiled. We did this several times and each time she flashed that ear to ear smile his way. So precious
*She thinks that the baby in the mirror (herself) is by far the funniest thing around. She loves for me to hold her up to the mirror that is behind her dresser/changing table and she laughs and kicks and squeals. She even loves to try and ~~slobber~~ kiss the baby in the mirror.
*When she drops a toy off her excersaucer or one of her binks from her bed, she peers over the side of the excersaucer or through the bars of her bed trying to find them.
*Still taking 2 naps
*Still nursing every 3-4 hours around the clock, eating solids 2 times a day and wanting REAL food like there is no tomorrow!
*Starting to sit all by her big self, though not 100% sturdy and will topple over after a few minutes.
*Loves to roll around on the floor with her toys and her bestie girlfriend Miss E.
*Snuggles with Tommy in his bed when he wakes up from his nap. Such precious moments!
*Had her first taste of strawberry ice cream and most likely her last for a long time. I think it hurt her tummy :( but boy did she LOVE it! But the dairy that I have now reintroduced into my diet does not seem to be bothering her at all. Thank goodness!! I missed cheese! *update:since having the strawberry ice cream her brothers have both fed her their vanilla frozen yogurt and not only does she LOVE it but it has not bothered in the least!!!
*Loves her Daddy
*I think that she is trying to wave "hi" and "bye"
*People always comment on how beautiful she is and how "cute" her cheeks are. We think so too, but we are perhaps a bit bias :)
*Still only 2 teeth
*Loves the bath tub
*Her personality is very much like it was when she was in utero. She is laid back and doesn't make a lot of fuss.
*She still will not take a bottle but we are working on a sippy cup and will drink about 2oz from that.
*Loves to snuggle in our bed in the morning before the ~~ruffians~~ brothers are up.
*Did I mention she loves her Daddy? :)
* Is starting to look like a big girl to me ;(

Dear Sweet Girl,
I am so grateful that you are healthy and strong, but seriously, please don't grow up too fast. Ok?! And I know that you are completely smitten by your brothers, you can't get enough of them, but be careful. All that batting of eyelashes and the ear to ear smiles you flash their way, could likely go to their heads!
We think you are pretty precious!
Love,
Mommy

The God Mother

2011-06-07T07:47:00.000-07:00

Penny and her God Mother, Sharon

Ok, first of all isn't this the cutest picture ever! Sharon looks so pretty and happy, and well, Miss Penny looks like such a big girl!

Sharon is one of my dearest friends who graciously, along with her husband, agreed to be Penny's God Parents. We have chosen God Parents for all of our children, people who we admire, love, respect and know will pray for and be a good example to the children.

We love you Miss Sharon!

My 4 Loves

2011-06-06T07:54:00.000-07:00

The title says it all.

Just Like Daddy

2011-06-05T07:42:00.000-07:00

Thomas wants to do anything and everything that his Daddy does. One of his favorite things to help with is mowing the grass. He asks to do it even when there is 3ft of snow on the ground. So, you can imagine his delight when he actually got to pull out his lawnmower and get down to business with Dad! And Trent is so good with his "mini me", letting him help right beside him....or a little behind him :)

Sitting Pretty

2011-06-04T07:42:00.000-07:00

Penny practicing, not 100% yet.


A few weeks later and practice makes perfect.

*Penny 6 months 3 weeks

Mother's Day 2011

2011-05-23T20:47:00.000-07:00

For Mother's Day we went to Great Gram's house in NY. It was the first time that Grams got to meet Miss Penny. They were so cute together and I could tell that it meant a lot to Grams that we were there. It meant a lot to us too!

Meeting each other for the first time.

Love this picture!

Love this one even more!!

Trent's mom was in town and we got to spend the day with her too. It was nice to all be together and she made a delicious meal for all of us to enjoy. The bread pudding was yummy!!

Even seemed to be on their best behavior, even cousin Tom. Tommy, who is usually afraid of cousin Tom because he is a rough around the edges kind of guy, said on the way home that he loves cousin Tom when he is grumpy and when he is happy. What a cute kid!

First family picture.

Daddy had the boys decorate a coffee mug for me. It is so sweet. They each drew a picture or wrote something on it. I love it! The boys made me cards and Trent bought me the most beautiful pink roses. They are gorgeous and a week later they are still gracing our dining room table!

Tommy loves his colors!!

Even Daddy helped

Charlie's part of the mug, it says "I love Mom"

The thing about Mother's Day or any holiday for that matter is not where you are, or what you are doing, it is who you are with. I was able to spend a great night out with my mom a few days before. Spending quality time together, laughing, talking, and eating way to much food. It was the best! And then I got to spend a lovely day with my mother in law, and Great Grams, Miss Penny and my 3 favorite guys of all time!

Flowers from my love

This year Mother's Day was bittersweet. I so cherished being with my children and my husband. They give me such joy, and so much unconditional love that my heart often feels like it is going to burst. I don't know what I ever did to deserve these 4 beautiful people, but I am beyond grateful that God choose me to mother and love them! And I so blessed to have a mother who loves me and my family so much. She is constantly telling me, and Trent, how much she loves him and how proud she is of him. She is always eager to spend time the children and even though they might run circles around her, she loves being with them.
But as beautiful as the day was, I missed Janie. Oh, how I never want to stop celebrating the mother that she was and still is to me! I dearly love her, I always will.

It was nice day, a beautiful day. And I know that I am so blessed.

Soccer Spring 2011

2011-05-22T20:31:00.000-07:00

Tommy has been anxiously waiting to be able to play sports, any kind of sports. We have been talking about soccer for months now and his turn to play finally came!

He was right there, chasing after the ball the whole game!

He ran it all the way down the field!

Got a chance to be goalie.

And even got a pep talk from Daddy on the sideline.

He was so cute in his little jersey and cleats. We loved watching him and he had a great time. With having the boys so close in age, they often do very similar things or things together. And since Tommy is only 4, he often gets to see Charlie doing fun activities that he might not be old enough to do. I am so happy for him that he finally gets to do something all by himself and that is just for him! We would cheer and yell for him and he would get the biggest smile on his face and do his cute little tongue in check "I am so proud of myself" face. That made getting up at the crack of dawn on a Saturday all worth it!

Charlie having some fun with a buddy. He opted to not play soccer this season but instead wanted to take gymnastic lessons. Can't wait to see his moves!


Penny not happy that the soccer game is dipping into her morning nap.

Sentimental

2011-05-21T20:08:00.000-07:00

Penny 6 months in her bassinet

The first night at home, Penny slept next to our bed in her bassinet. Her first hand-me-down from her older brother Thomas. I remember looking at her every breath, just thanking God for yet again another little miracle. For 5 months she would peacefully rest next to us. Trent and I would fall asleep listening to her sweet baby sounds. It was such a good feeling for her to be so close to us.

Charlie sharing a sentimental moment with Mommy and Penny

Each night I would kiss her sweet little fuzzy head as she drifted off to sleep. I often wake up in the middle of the night and lean over her as she slept, resting my head on the side of her bed. So many prayers were said in that space. So much gratitude was poured out there. I eagerly woke to her coos of hunger and cradled her in my arms.

The view from my spot on the bed

At 4 1/2 months Penny started taking naps in her big girl crib in her room. By 5 months old she left our room for good. I knew it was time as we kept waking her up when we would go to bed for the night. We all are sleeping better in our own spaces, but I do miss waking up to this sweet face each morning.

I took these pictures the other day when I decided it was time to put the bassinet away. It has been sitting empty next to our bed for over 6 weeks. It might sound silly but it took me that long to be ok with taking it down. When I was taking the pictures and explaining to Charlie why we needed to take the bed down, he even got sentimental. I said "Charlie, baby is growing up so fast", and he said to me "I know Mama, she is getting too big".

All these little milestones that Penny is reaching are so exciting and yet they pull at my heartstrings. It makes me sad that my baby is growing up so quickly. I just wish that time would slow down a bit. I want to hold onto each of these moments and cherish even the small things, like a final rest in a sweet little bassinet.

Two Peas in a Pod

2011-05-20T20:00:00.000-07:00

These two can't get enough of each other.


Those eyes, those little mouths.

Like two peas in a pod.

I pray you guys always love each other the way you do today.

TEETH!!

2011-05-19T19:53:00.000-07:00

2 perfectly pearly white baby teeth

Protected

2011-05-18T19:31:00.000-07:00

Don't mess with this guy....

He has some serious guns......

And he takes his job as protector........


VERY seriously!

But seriously!

How does a child who does not own a single toy gun

and

who is encouraged to NOT play with guns,

turn EVERYTHING into a gun?!!!!

At least we are WELL protected!

This little Piggie.....

2011-05-16T18:25:00.000-07:00

I just love these little piggies.

Praying for Healing

2011-05-15T17:33:00.000-07:00


Jane and I at Penny's baby shower. A week before she died.

We went to church today, even though the thought of dragging all the children through the rainy, wet mess was less then motivating.

During the musical worship segment, my favorite, I prayed for healing. The song ended and the stand in Pastor said we were going to do something different today for prayer. He asked for those that had a need to stay standing and for others to come and lay their hands on them and pray for them.

At first I was a embarrassed, what would Trent think, would I be the only one standing?

I tried convincing myself that my "need" wasn't that big of a deal and I should just sit down.

But hadn't I just asked for healing?

I stayed standing and several ladies came to my side. One asked if there was something she could pray for.

The only words that I could get out were

"for anxiety over my step moms death"

I held Penny close to my chest and just prayed be healed of the overwhelming anxiety that often floods my body. For the moments of late when the fear just gripes my chest and the panic sets in. I felt the presence of God in the warmth of their hands.

I have dealt with this demon before and I know how to defeat it.

Jane died and 3 weeks later Penny was born. I was in shock over her death and then had to and wanted to go into mommy mode. Maybe this is wrong to say or think , but I didn't want to miss those first sweet moments with Penny, I didn't want them to be clouded by my sadness.

I have focused on the positive and tried to see the blessings in her passing. But I am just now beginning to really grieve and it is coming in the form of panic attacks.

So, I prayed for healing and God answered.

I miss her. I really miss her.

As Trent told me, if he wants to be sad, then he is sad. If he wants to be angry, then he is angry. If he wants to be filled with joy, then he is filled with joy.

The pastor said that God can handle our questions, our doubt, our saddness.

I think I will let Him.

"The LORD himself goes before you and will be with you; he will never leave you nor forsake you. Do not be afraid; do not be discouraged.” - Deuteronomy 31:8

Eggshellland 2011

2011-05-07T11:08:00.000-07:00

The boys enjoying their tasty treat, Penny not impressed.

Sign, Cross, Characters from the movie UP

The balloons and house from UP

Hot air balloons

Tommy covered in Spider Man ice cream

Every year right before Easter we make our way over to Eggshellland. The same family has been emptying, painting and making a fabulous display out of real eggs for something like 40+ years. It is amazing and fun, free activity to do with the kids.

And this year the day before Easter, when we went, was actually warm enough to wear shorts and eat ice cream! The next day it was cold and rainy, but we will take what we can get!

6 months

2011-05-04T10:52:00.000-07:00

Sweet baby girl is 6 months old. Truthfully, it makes me a bit sad. Ok, it makes me a lot sad. I want to stop time or at least slow it down a bit, but I can't. So, I'll just try to enjoy and cherish each and every moment with this sweet babe. And take a 1,000 pictures ;)

What we love about you sweet Penelope Jane at six months is:

*You are still tickled pink each and every time I come and get you out of your crib. You flash me that ear to ear smile, wrinkle up your nose, and kick your feet. Melt.my.heart.
*You have 2 precious, little white pearly teeth (SLOWLY) making their debut. I can no longer call you "toothless". I know, silly little nickname I have always called all our babies during their "toothless" grin stage.
*You are still an eating champ! You nurse at least 6 times day/night, if not more. At 4 months I tried giving you solids. You really were not interested. At five and a half months I tried again. This time you were mildly interested and by 6 months you are eating 3 small meals of fruits and veggies a day. (However, Dr. C just reduced you down to 2 small meals a day and an extra nursing to try and get you to sleep longer at night)

*You roll all over the place. Gone are the days of leaving you resting on Daddy and Mommy's bed. You love to roll, but get very frustrated when you get stuck against the side of your bed at night.
*You love, LOVE, love your brothers! They do this cute little "Penny Dance" with you and you just love it. They are so sweet with you and always want to hold you, play with you, change your diaper (Tommy) and feed you. You can't get enough of them!
*You are in.love with Daddy. You follow him with your eyes wherever he goes. You are so content in his arms and you get so excited when he comes home at night.
*You usually wake up 2 times to eat during the night. Sometimes 3 but that is rare at this point. I love sitting with you in the wee morning hours and know that very soon this time will be over and I will miss it dearly.
*A bit of separation anxiety has set in and you are weary of large crowds.
*You have started to reach for me when someone else is holding you and I love.it!!!

Your sweet little teeth

*Your favorite toys are your bunny lovie that Charlie named Hop-a-Long and a small purple Easter rabbit that Nana gave you. Still not a binki lover at all.
*Sleeping solely in your crib now for both naps (9am and 1pm) and bed time :( Your little bassinet is still by our bed though, because your Mom is ~~silly~~ sentimental like that.
*You weight 19lbs and are wearing a size 9-12 months clothing..
*You are the sweetest girl ever. Seriously, you are!

We can't believe that you are already 6 months old!! Time is flying by and we are loving it!

Organize, Purge, Plan, Clean

2011-04-27T19:03:00.000-07:00

It is that time of year again to organize, purge, plan and clean up our house and lives. Spring is always a period of rejuvenating for me and this year more then ever. After having a rough Fall/Winter I am ready clean house!

flying homemade kites in the ~~mud pit~~ backyard

I have started to slowly go through every closet, bin, basket and cupboard and get rid of everything that needs to go. I plan to go back through everything and really organize and make it all pretty. But for now I just need the ~~junk~~ stuff out of the house or at least in a huge pile in the basement waiting to head off to the garage sale!

The kids toys need organizing again. The basement is now functioning as a playroom and they love it as do I! It is so nice to have a separate room to house most of their toys and where they can go and play. This task is just underway and I have a long ways to go but the pile in the basement is growing. That is a good thing!

We are almost done with our school for the year. We all need a break and are looking forward to lazy summer days :) I am busy planning Tommy's PreK curriculum for next year and hope to get it all done by May. Charlie's curriculum comes at the end of June, beginning of July. When it gets here I will go through all the lessons, worksheets, experiments etc and decide when and what we will be doing and what I need to supplement. I just bought a new homeschooling mom's daily planner and I can't wait for it to come!

Charlie and Sammie

We were forced to clear our schedules all winter long trying to keep Penny healthy during flu season. So far it has worked and we are beyond thankful for her health. It has been a wonderful few months spending lots of time together as a family and focusing on what is really important. We have really simplified our lives and it feels good. With Spring right around the corner we will be getting out again. We have signed the boys up for soccer and this summer they will go to VBS and take swim lessons.

On a personal note, I have begun to shed the baby weight. I started off strong with WW (Weight Watchers) about 7 weeks ago and easily lost 11 pounds. Then I got lazy and stopped counting my points and writing down everything I eat. I haven't gained any, but I haven't lost any since either. I am SO ready to have a body that slightly resembles my pre-baby body. I am realistic in knowing it will never be quite the same and that is ok. I have had three children. I know some ladies can slim right back down to where they were, but that just isn't my reality. I am trying to also look at this journey with a new perspective. I want to focus more on being healthy then how much I weigh. I know that very soon I will have a precious little girl looking up to me to be an example on many things. I want to be able to give Penny a positive message when it comes to her body image.

The rain keeps coming but I know that sunny days lay ahead. I can't wait!!