Tonight I am feeling overwhelmed with gratitude for the life that I live, bumps, mountains, valleys and all. Life can be difficult, more then once I have been thrown a curve ball. And each time I have fallen to my knees and reached out to my Lord and Savior for guidance, love and help. I have often stumbled but I have never fallen so deep that God could not pick me up.
There have been times when I felt alone, scared, and uncertain of what the future would hold. There is no promise of a tomorrow and that can be frightening at times. However, I find great comfort is knowing that there is a promise of eternal life with Jesus, if I only believe. And believe I do, with all my heart, with every fiber of my being. There is nothing or no one that could make me believe otherwise.
To know a God that is all loving, full of mercy and grace. To have that intimate relationship with Him and know that no matter how lonely I feel, how scared I get, that He is always with me. He never leaves me, not for a second. He is all powerful, mighty and majestic. He is sweet and loving, comforting and caring.
During my moments of weakness I often think of God our father. What would my Dad here on Earth do if I was hurting, in pain? He would comfort me, probably give me a hug, bring me a milkshake :) and tell me that he loved me. I know that our Heavenly Father would do the same and on an even great level. I find so much comfort knowing this, it makes choosing happiness even in the valleys or climbing the mountains of life just a bit easier.
I feel so blessed to have a loving Heavenly Father. I am grateful for the people that he has put in my life. My husband, the man who has taken care of me, comforted me, gently rubbed my head and calmed my fears. The man who has literally put everything on hold to help me get well. He has shown his love for me and our family, time and time again through his actions. Our family is stronger because of Trent. Our family is happy and loving and kind and good, because of his example and love.
I often pray for Trent as the leader of our family. What an incredible responsibility to hold. And yet, he leads our family with such ease and confidence. I know the experiences of the last few weeks have made him an even greater leader. He has had to do things that he had never done before, make difficult decisions, and be brave and strong when I am sure he felt weak and alone. But God has been right beside him, leading him.
I feel as if our family has been protected, literally covered by God's grace these last few weeks. My heart is full of gratitude tonight for my life, for my husband, our three sweet healthy children, our family and friends that have reached out to us in our time of need. The daily phone calls checking in, emails, cards, flowers, dinners, babysitting, rides, and most importantly, prayers. There have been so many people loving on our family, it has been amazing.
I thank God for all things.
Life if good.